Half Alive

December 28, 2011 - moms birthday, cold.

Will you run faster than I can reach?

Can you swim deeper than I have drown?

How about remove this aching leach?

Will you climb the highest mountain?

Can you find me in this empty abyss?

How about grant my wishes upon the fountain?

Search high and low

Seek far and wide

Commence upward and below

Are you willing and able?

May you look passed the inevitable,

Possible and probable?

I've waited my entire life simply for you

Only to find the brutal truth

You never fail in failing to follow through.

I have needed you for so long,

Just to go on, just to breathe

Even when I found you, were in the wrong.

I cannot hate you enough

Though I love you ever more

I have made it through without you, even in the rough.

I am treading by a single thread

Though I will refuse to fall and break

Or allow you to bide inside my pretty little head

Please bare with me, my dear

For you are the other party,

And have absolutely nothing to fear

I have not done this, not ever before

Im trying to start new, and thats where I found you

So please just understand, im not running anymore.

I find myself burning into two

From the two of you I am torn

And it is all simply because of you.

Will you still fight beyond the brink?

Can you save me from myself

Or will you only allow me to sink?

Now if you will

If you love me as you say

Then leave me be, and my happiness still.